Consistently Inconsistent

But starting some new habits and sticking with them.

I have never been a consistent person. I am more likely to dive into something head first, hyper focus on it, talk about it all the time, and then never touch it again.

Is this my undiagnosed ADD? Maybe? Let’s put a pin in that though and get back to the fact that being inconsistent has been the most consistent feedback I have gotten in my life.

So it is as much a surprise to me as anyone else that suddenly I have gotten very consistent about a few habits in my life and I think it’s because I have faced some harsh realities. This also ties back to what I was saying about weight lifting and exercise.

Apparently I am IN my 40s, not just like, oh I turned 40 yesterday and my 30s are just 365 days ago. It’s more like 1,460 days ago. To be exact!

How do I know I am in my 40s now? I have actually started to FEEL changes. The texture on my facial skin was changing. Lines were appearing that had never been there. My brain is foggier. My emotions are swinging. My muscles were weaker. I wasn’t metabolizing food like I used to. About 9 months ago, I started to realize these changes were because of my age and I could ignore them and just carry on, or I could make some new habits. I am someone who is motivated very well by fear so while I have dabbled in all of the below for many years, I always go through periods of abandoning the habit for a while and coming back to it. But faced with the reality of changes I don’t want, for the first time in my life, I am being CONSISTENT about some things and I could not be more proud of myself: